I don't know how to feel about anything anymore

I have been blessed recently by my darling Aunt who brought me to Denver Colorado for a week and it was the best week of my life. I mean the absolute best week of my life. I got to fly for the first time ever by myself and it was really strange but cool at the same time. I had turbulence for the first 2 hours of the 2 hour and 42 minute flight there but the view of the mountains as we landed was worth all the turbulence. I got to see my Aunt Darlynn, Aunt Janice, Uncle Dave and cousins Chris, Jenny, Matt, Lisa, Billy Joe, Mark, Linda, Ally G, Anthony, and Tabby. I met Grandma Maggie and it was wonderful. We went to Westminster, Blackhawk, Aurora, Arvada, Thornton, Boulder, Lookout Mountain, Golden, Evergreen, Estes Park, Rocky Mountain National Park, downtown Denver and we ate at all different kinds of places mostly Mexican, i had 7 11 every day. I was happy and joyous for the first time in a long time. then i come back here and i am depressed and everything sucks. I still love Jesus and i am so happy to have him in my life but my whole outlook on life has changed. I am not in the little box anymore and i want to experience more, see more things, open more doors, fly more places, enjoy more life and eat it up. I finally have a job that i have been blessed with and i will be able to save and go to Colorado again. Maybe i will be able to take my mom, i pray that i get to take my mom. She would like to see her sisters and nieces and nephews. To top it all off my best friend who was kind enough to corner me in her kitchen in lebelle about how Jesus is good and i should give Christianity a try is dying of cancer. The doctors gave her two months to live, she is having seizures, she has two in operable brain tumors. I am trying my hardest not to cry about it until she is in heaven but it is hard. The best thing about this is that Sandy isn't afraid anymore, she knows she is going to be with Jesus and she will see her mother soon so she is happy and so full of faith its incredible. I need prayers and so does she.