I have been a Christian for coming up on 6 years in october and though I have had alot of fun loving Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit.....I have not enjoyed all the highschool BS that goes with church ppl.
I am not at all saying that there arent wonderful Christian ppl out there because I am happy to know quite a few.
What I am talking about is all the back biting, jealous, envious, gossiping, holier than thou a-holes that profess to love everyone and all that jazz. I have been a christian for 6 years and have seen more fights, and nasty behavior in the church that i have ever seen in a bar full of angry, horny drunks. I'd say thats pretty bad!!!!
Ive felt more accepted in a coven full of wiccans than i ever have being a christian. I am tooo worldly for the christians and tooo christian for the world. WTF!!! You know what? I know that Jesus loves me and thats all that really matters honestly, but seriously I should be accepted in a church or a church "clique" without having daggers shot at me! I mean really ppl!! Id feel more safe at a black mass where they were sacrificing babies then i do at most church functions. So i have come to the conclusion that all christians hate each other in someway. now i know alot of ppl with disagree and there are a few exceptions to this as always not everyone hates ppl. but we as christians fight over the dumbest stuff. your either to radical or not enough, your baptized and going to heaven or your not a christian at all, you arent filled with the holy spirit if you don't talk in tongues or your demon possessed with that infernal language that breaks forth from your wicked tongue. you don't know the supernatural if you have never been slain in the spirit or your the devil for falling over while someone prays for you. I could go on and on about that.
for the most part as to what has been bothering me is jealousy and gossip.....IDGAF if you go to another church and are happy there, i wouldn't care if i was a pastor and you were the only money coming in to my church, if you feel God calling you elsewhere by all means go. why do we as christians get so upset if someone leaves in order to grow more spiritual? God doesn't care about money and neither should you he has the wealth on a thousand hill and will provide for you so shut up and let them go. If you are hurt don't lure another hurt person in and poison them againt who hurt you, that is just bad business. KEEP YOU LOOSE LIPS SHUT!!! I don't want to hear about how awful so and so is and how they are the devil incarnate for not calling you papa when you deserve respect when you my friend are a very judgemental, unforgiving, gossiping, hurt, miserable person who claims they have been "set apart by God himself and you do no wrong" you my friend are full of it. Seriously lets deflate that ego so you can fit your head through your church door!! I think what you all need is a swift kick to the ego and here it is.
You all are very hurt, and things in you past have made you that way. unfortunately you wont get help because you see everyone else as having fault instead of your selfs. (no one is perfect and neither are you). You poison ppl againt everything that isn't your doing or your involved in because you are green with envy when someone elses ministry is doing well. You want all control because you are out of control of your own lifes your own ministry and you have told so many lies no one knows whats the truth anymore. I am so sorry that you were hurt but if you truly believe that you were set free of your past with Jesus you would try to become better ppl, but you don't and you don't want to. take some advive from the good book. Forgive others or God himself will not forgive you.
I am so completely done with all this arguing and fighting inside the church there will be no big revival because we have too many selfish ppl in this community that want it to happen in their church to they can have the glory it sickens me. I want Jesus to come and be more real than ever but i am constanly reminded of all the nasty things happening that i cant concentrate. I know that is a fault on my part and its something that i am willing to work on and ask God for help with. I am not innocent and i know this will probably hurt alot of ppl but ive been called the spawn of satan multiple times since becoming a christian and im ok with being called it again. I mean if i don't piss ppl off what would i do.....?
I am not at all saying that there arent wonderful Christian ppl out there because I am happy to know quite a few.
What I am talking about is all the back biting, jealous, envious, gossiping, holier than thou a-holes that profess to love everyone and all that jazz. I have been a christian for 6 years and have seen more fights, and nasty behavior in the church that i have ever seen in a bar full of angry, horny drunks. I'd say thats pretty bad!!!!
Ive felt more accepted in a coven full of wiccans than i ever have being a christian. I am tooo worldly for the christians and tooo christian for the world. WTF!!! You know what? I know that Jesus loves me and thats all that really matters honestly, but seriously I should be accepted in a church or a church "clique" without having daggers shot at me! I mean really ppl!! Id feel more safe at a black mass where they were sacrificing babies then i do at most church functions. So i have come to the conclusion that all christians hate each other in someway. now i know alot of ppl with disagree and there are a few exceptions to this as always not everyone hates ppl. but we as christians fight over the dumbest stuff. your either to radical or not enough, your baptized and going to heaven or your not a christian at all, you arent filled with the holy spirit if you don't talk in tongues or your demon possessed with that infernal language that breaks forth from your wicked tongue. you don't know the supernatural if you have never been slain in the spirit or your the devil for falling over while someone prays for you. I could go on and on about that.
for the most part as to what has been bothering me is jealousy and gossip.....IDGAF if you go to another church and are happy there, i wouldn't care if i was a pastor and you were the only money coming in to my church, if you feel God calling you elsewhere by all means go. why do we as christians get so upset if someone leaves in order to grow more spiritual? God doesn't care about money and neither should you he has the wealth on a thousand hill and will provide for you so shut up and let them go. If you are hurt don't lure another hurt person in and poison them againt who hurt you, that is just bad business. KEEP YOU LOOSE LIPS SHUT!!! I don't want to hear about how awful so and so is and how they are the devil incarnate for not calling you papa when you deserve respect when you my friend are a very judgemental, unforgiving, gossiping, hurt, miserable person who claims they have been "set apart by God himself and you do no wrong" you my friend are full of it. Seriously lets deflate that ego so you can fit your head through your church door!! I think what you all need is a swift kick to the ego and here it is.
You all are very hurt, and things in you past have made you that way. unfortunately you wont get help because you see everyone else as having fault instead of your selfs. (no one is perfect and neither are you). You poison ppl againt everything that isn't your doing or your involved in because you are green with envy when someone elses ministry is doing well. You want all control because you are out of control of your own lifes your own ministry and you have told so many lies no one knows whats the truth anymore. I am so sorry that you were hurt but if you truly believe that you were set free of your past with Jesus you would try to become better ppl, but you don't and you don't want to. take some advive from the good book. Forgive others or God himself will not forgive you.
I am so completely done with all this arguing and fighting inside the church there will be no big revival because we have too many selfish ppl in this community that want it to happen in their church to they can have the glory it sickens me. I want Jesus to come and be more real than ever but i am constanly reminded of all the nasty things happening that i cant concentrate. I know that is a fault on my part and its something that i am willing to work on and ask God for help with. I am not innocent and i know this will probably hurt alot of ppl but ive been called the spawn of satan multiple times since becoming a christian and im ok with being called it again. I mean if i don't piss ppl off what would i do.....?
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